Greetings friends! For those who celebrated Thanksgiving in the United States, I hope you all had a wonderful and peaceful day filled with gratitude. Mine didn’t exactly go as planned, so I wanted to share what has been going on in my crazy world.
I have been a walking calamity. I was sick and on antibiotics, got laryngitis and could not talk, then to top it all off, I fell in a shopping center, sprained my ankle and scraped up my knee. Yeah, it’s been a rough week for me.
I think I cried for a good hour on and off. I felt angry. I felt like shit overall and immediately wondered, “Why is this happening to me?” I had myself a pity party. I had so many things to do and this put a monkey wrench in my to-do list.
I pride myself on being independent so the thought of asking for help OR just receiving it without asking for it was painful! I sat around like a grump at first and had to accept that my to-do list was clearly the Universe’s last priority. I had to calm down and be willing to receive since I am always so willing to give, give, give!
To practice Receiving while Giving, I wanted to make a list of the things I am grateful for. The end of the year is coming rather quickly and it seems like a good time to reflect a little more these days.
- Thank you, Universe, for halting my plans when you clearly have something else in mind.
- Thank you for Synchronicity and not the kind my mind is looking for. For the serendipitous moments that allow wonder back into my logic driven consciousness.
- Thank you for the very few people in my life who show up and genuinely care.
- Thank you for those people who left, too. You were taking up too much space on my journey and one should always travel lightly when walking the path of purpose.
- Thank you to those who never lent a helping hand but rather a sharp word to judge. Because of you I learned my own strength and resourcefulness.
- Thank you for the roof over my head, the food on my table, and the clothes on my back. My most basic needs are met and I am glad.
- Thank you for the pain I have felt, emotional and physical. I am still learning to slow down. I am still learning my way forward.
I am sitting down with a cup of coffee writing the end of this and I feel good about it and yet a little sad. I can’t explain this sadness to you other than saying it’s a melancholy that exists within me even when I am happy. I have come to accept my sadness as the very glitter of my world. How I see things. How I feel them. How deeply my experiences have marked my bones. I am grateful for it.
I wish you all a season of deep gratitude, peace and mindfulness as these are gifts that will take you past your limitations every time.